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After experiencing all these shity stuffs... i guess i've been much stronger since then... that means my heart and my soul become stronger, but not my body (it's stiil weak and tired out day by day, worst of all....sleepy..-.- ) i am kind of confused about the way of thinking of a normal human being. am i abnormal or am i totally different from the people around me? or, the whole world is just running on an orbit that i couldn't follow any more? at first, i thought that's because i was too dumb and lack of observation, i got a big generation gap between the people and me... i couldn't imagine the changing and couldn't understand others' speaking, either, so what i chose to do is to hide myself behind, far away from the crowd. The most ridiculous thing in my life should be that yesterday, i was popped the questipon by a man. we weren't even dating yet... did he lose his mind or something? was he gone crazy? God, what's the hell matter with all these shity? please help me, or, kill me.... i am completely shocked by that.. however, since then.. i've made up my mind not to escape and i should be brave to face th music i believe i could be strong enough to fight all the difficulities coming toward me.. i am VERY thankful to those who love me and those i loved ALSO thankful to those who hurt me and those i might hurt..(sorry~) because of you, guys, i am what i am now..... and your understanding, acceptance and unconditional positive regard let me be what i am... you may not know how much it meant to me forever... but, it's really important for me... i drowned, i struggled and i conquered, so i survive!! i can be more genuine when i appreciate myself and i believe that i would get more empathy when i get along with others. "the way to do is to be"..i read the sentence from the book of Rogers and i agree with him a lot...i like it.. Thanks for the book...and all my friends i know i am afraid no longer and i believe in me... ^^ becoming....it's always a process, not the end... i hope that everyone who understands the deep meaning in this reading would live a better life and love yourself more...